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got off from work at 5:00 PM.
nagpunta muna ako sa grocery store and bought items that i will send back in the Philippines.
My kuya will have his vacation on the first week of July.
naiingit naman ako kay kuya.
sana ako din makauwi na para makapagbakasyon.
uhmm. tingin ko ill do that this year but im not sure what specific month ill take it.
maybe December, in time with the holidays.

by the way.
after the breakup,
i decided not to communicate with the person who broke my heart.
not because it's the right decision.
but because i'm just hurt.
di ako masyado madramang tao.
that is why i dont pay that much attention of issues concerning negativity.
may tendency ako to be numb and feel nothing.
as in wala.
wala ka makukuha emosyon.

i guessed heto yung natutunan ko magmula ng magtrabaho ako sa ibang bansa.
i dont know kung tama siya o hindi,
pero so far
ito yung dahilan kung bakit ako nagsusurvive dito.
hayst.
sobrang daming problema.

i received an email from someone special tonight.
it's a message from the philippines.
it's nothing that i expected.
and i was sad.

it's a break up mail.
i balled my eyes like for the second im reading.
we've been almost a year and a few months or so.
i guess long distance relationship is tough.

nakapangako pa naman ako sa sarili ko that
as much as possible i will make this work.
after all it's my very first real relationship.
real..

galing ako sa isang broken family
thats why i know how hard it's been loosing someone that
you love so dearly.

everything is not going well.
and again it's getting dark from where i am.
if i could just skip the pain part.

i wasn't supposed to write tonight
and im not expecting that i will write this part on my blog.
my 3rd post.
breakup post.

I’m having a hard time writing a follow up sa blog that I just started couple of days ago.
Or should I say umaandar lang ulit yung katamaran ko.
At wala ako maisip isulat.haha.

But seriously im quite busy lately sa trabaho..
Sunday and Monday were both 8 hours of work.
While Tuesday will be 12 hours.
Yeah 12 hours.
Poor me.
poor poor me.

Im so tired of my line of work.
I so want to do other things..

Well enough with the ranting about my lousy work..
Pag naiisip ko lalo ako nababadtrip.
Anyhow.

I have this long lasting contract of 3 years lang naman.
By that time I will be 25.
And I remember telling that when I reach that time
“ill be financially stable” maraming maraming pera.
“ill have my own house” that me and my lovelove live in.
“ nagwowork na ko sa GMA or ABS-CBN” as a researcher sa news and current affairs.
And the list goes on..

But reality check.
Im turning 23 this August.
I’m in dubai .
And all that I can call my own possession..
Uhmm… wala ata ako maisip.
Wala nga…

natapos ang unang taon ko dito sa dubai without any savings.
What I earned were just
The unlimited amount of heat from the sun.

and

The belly that’s getting bigger and bigger.

hay.
I’m completely out of track.
Pero tinutuwid ko na naman na yung sarili ko ngayon.
Kaya nga prinomise ko sa sarili ko na di na ko magiging tamad.
Ewan ko nga ba minsan hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko.
Kaya pag dumadating sa puntong naiinis na ko sa araw ko
Isa lang ang solusyon ko:

TULOG